if you never knew before

The smile of your lips eclipse the honesty in your eyes 
I’m sorry it took me so long to finally see
I promise I couldn’t tell the truth behind
But there’s strength in the tremble 
that your lips seem to be holding back
There’s a storm that’s forcing its way
Hoping your courage has a tiny crack
I forget to see you’re struggling sometimes
To wake up to a yet another new day
To will yourself to hold it back in
To not break down each time you just can’t
And spill out the secret demons for all to see
I know you want to save me from the pain
I know you want to hide the weakness
That you’re struggling to carry alone
But maybe you’re not aware, too scared to believe
But I promise I’ll prove every single day
That I’d move a thousand mountains
I’d go to ends of the earth and more
To be the person that you need
To make things a little better
Even if it’s only a little
Even if it’s only a bit

Be Better

The clouds have thickened and I’m losing my vision

Can’t wait for these self-made veils to thin out

The storm keeps roaring into my ears

And there is no way to shut them up

 

But I wanna be better

Better than I was yesterday

Better than all of last year

But I don’t really know how

 

Keep running into old habits

They seem to find me wherever I go

Every time I set my shoulders straight

They lure me into their fluffy tentacles

 

But I wanna be better

Better than I was yesterday

Better than all of last year

I just need to keep running

 

I intend to keep my promise this time

I will make it through this time

 

The nights are easy to make plans

It is the mornings that make it hard

I have missed too many dawns

Don’t remember what the sun looks like

 

But I wanna be better

Better than I was yesterday

Better than all of last year

This promise I intend to keep